Realisations
After conversations I've had with friends and enemies over the last few days, one thing has become clear to me: I am tired of being any sort of leader. After nearly 30 years of overall success of proving and re-proving my abilities and my worth; of surpassing expectations and leaving jobs and projects very obviously better than they were before my input, I question my current abilities in a leadership role and I realise how much I now resent standing up for people who won't stand up for themselves. I am tired of fighting people in positions of supposed public service who think they're in positions of power and work only to maintain those positions for themselves. I despise those people who moan to me about the trouble with the creative sector in North East England but smile, cow-tow and fawn to the people about whom they complain. I have no energy to devote to another slog towards an uncertain goal o